Forum 3B-Road Maps and Prayers

"Known unto God are all his works from the beginning of the world" Acts 15: 18

There are so many times where I feel lost. I just don't know what's going on, what's going to happen, or what to do. It's a very frightening feeling, in my opinion, even more frightening than the feeling of actually being physically lost. At least then you can make plans. But when you're lost in your own life, you can't really make plans because you have nothing to base your plans on.

As a child, you think that adults have all the answers. They all seem so confident. Even when they told you they didn't know the answer to something, you were so sure that they did know but that they just weren't thinking hard enough about it. It's been scary to realize that really, adults don't have all the answers. In fact, sometimes they just make them up! Makes me feel kinda cheated. I mean, I'm getting close(r) to being an adult and I thought once I was one, I'd suddenly know what I was doing. It's pretty disappointing to find out that it doesn't work that way.

But that very disappointment is what makes believing and knowing that God exists so comforting. Here is someone, finally, who knows what's going on. In fact, He's even directing it! It could be tempting to blame Him for the hard things that happen just as much as we are grateful for our blessings but really, how silly would that be? I don't just believe in God, I believe that He is a benevolent, loving, kind Father. Just like our dads here make us do things we don't like that are good for us, God gives us challenges that help us in ways we might not always be able to see. But He can.

And that's one of the things that's so wonderful about having a personal relationship with God. When I realize that I'm lost again, when I can't see any way out, I can throw my hands up and say "Lord, I don't know how anything could possibly work in all of this. I don't see any way this could be good. I have no idea what I'm doing. But I know you do. So I'll keep going but I'm going to have to keep asking you for directions. I know you know where I am and where I should go, so I'll trust you and I'll keep going wherever it is you're sending me". I can turn my troubles over to the Lord and know that He'll guide me and help me sort them out.

I seem to do this an awful lot, this whole getting lost thing. But that's okay. It's teaching me to trust. And I know I couldn't be in better hands.